Top?!/I Love Gift Shopping!/Happy Anniversary!/14 Hours of Sleep!

Time started: 11:08am
Place: My room
Weather: Beautiful
Mood: Content

Mih...I've been so lazy lately I don't update my blog daily like I used to -.-;;
Anyway...let's start with Thursday:

Top?!:
Hehe...I came to class late today for Design & Innovation (I didn't think I'd sleep in). It started at 9am but I got there half an hour late. Didn't matter though because all we did that day was have the tutors tell us how we went in our orals. My group got 92% for our oral and apparently we topped the entire unit (which had 297 people)! WOOHOO! We were so worried!
Yaaaaaaaaaaay! We finished class 2 hours early! Muahahaha! >=D
Katerina and I went to the computer rooms to meet up with Eliza after class. She was busy doing her Chemistry Tutorial questions and we kept her company until about 1pm. Then Katerina and I went to Casuarina for lunch. We both had Red Rooster. Later we just walked around aimlessly (as usual) around Casuarina then we went to the library at around 3pm. I saw my Sammy Wammy who just arrived from school *huggles her Sammy Wammy*. Then we went back to Casuarina so Katerina could meet up with her younger sister. Katerina went present shopping with her sister and I went home.
Hmm...what did I do when I went home? >_<;; I can't remember...
I think I just drew...no wait! I wrote a letter! That's it...hehe...
At night I was being the usual...a bum on the computer talking to people...I can't remember anything significant...
NO! WAIT! Hehe...I had this 3 hour argument with Jarrad about whether Earth was an element or not...hehe, that was kinda fun XD. None of us admitted defeat so I have no idea who won the argument. I tried to form allies with other people but they all ended up backing up Jarrad's side of the argument *grumbles* except for Lisa...she's cool XD. Yay! *Huggles Lisa*.
Mih...that argument really drained my brain.
After that I watched a few episodes of Naruto (it's getting so scary! O_o;;) then went to bed...

I Love Gift Shopping!:
In the morning I finished off writing a letter and making a birthday card ^.^, after that I was in a happy mood.
Then I had to go to university to meet up with Kat and Eliza. I met them at the computer labs at 11am. Then we set off to Casuarina to go gift shopping. Eliza bought her sister a top from City Beach, Katerina bought her sister earrings (mih...everyone has sisters but me *cries*). I'm not going to reveal what I bought for who just yet in case this person reads this...I had so much fun finding the present though =D. Happy happy joy joy! I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE Gift shopping! It's one of my favourite things to do =). Eliza left at around 2:00pm so it just left us with Katerina and me. We just browsed around, got some snacks (chocolate! Yummy =P), then Katerina had to go to her lecture. We caught the 2:30 bus, she got off at Uni, I got of at my place. Then I just went home, watch a few Naruto episodes, was a computer bum for the rest of the day (seriously, I need to get out more...).

Happy Anniversary!:
While I was being a bum on the computer I spent hours and hours drawing on the computer for Lou and Jasper since it was their 6 month anniversary this night. Meeheehee...it took me about 10 hours in total to do, I showed them and they loved it =D yay! Jarrad couldn't handle people complimenting me so he joined deviantart just to give me nasty comments on the drawing (how mean! JARRAD YOU BASTID!) XD. Ahh well, it gave me a good laugh.
In the evening I watched some more Naruto XD...(I'm addicted in case you couldn't tell!).
Hehe...then the usual...I went to bed at around 1am! I slept very well that night.

14 Hours of Sleep!:
I woke up at 11am on Saturday morning. Told you I slept very well that night >_O. That was already 10 hours of sleep. Then I browsed around deviantart and did a bit of homework until 1pm. Then I was sleepy again so I went ot sleep. I woke up at 5pm. Woohoo! Another 4 hours of sleep. You know...for an insomniac, when you're sleeping this much...if feels really, really good =D.
When I woke up I made some plans for my birthday party. Erin and I decided to have another joint birthday party this year. So far our plans are:
In the morning: Go for a swim at Lake Leanyer.
Afternoon: (The initial idea was to watch the Da Vinci Code but that doesn't come out til May 18th...bugger!) Go watch a movie...
Evening: Go to Casuarina beach and have a picnic dinner...
Wow...I can't believe I'm going to be 18 soon...that's so scary! X_x.
Hehe...you guessed it. I was being a computer bum for the rest of the evening. When there was no one to talk to on msn I just watched another Naruto episode until 1:30am and went to bed.
There you have it...an updated blog! Yay! (I know it's not very exciting reading about me being a computer bum hehe...)

Time finished: 11:41am
Weather: Absolutely fabulous!
Mood: Content

Temporary Freedom

Time started: 11:46pm
Place: My room
Weather: Boring
Mood: Relaxed

Hmm...I guess I'm a bit disappointed that Cyclone Monica didn't come at all (I wanted it to come while it was category 1 but it died before it even arrived). However I'm glad that we're all okay. Monica did quite a lot of damage to other areas like Jabiru and the Gulf. Luckily no one was killed because the cyclone mostly hit isolated areas.
Anyway...I didn't do much yesterday. I wasn't happy yesterday because school was back on today *grumbles* so I spent the entire day trying to do my Anatomy & Physiology practical report. Bleargh...I didn't quite leave it to the last minute...I just didn't know how to do it X_x so in a way...I left it to the last minute hehe...
I wish I didn't know how to procrastinate. I hate wasting time >_<. Well, I love wasting time if it's with my friends but...the after affects suck...so....yeah...if you have a procrastinating problem like me...STOP IT NOW! >_<;;
There should be like a club called "Procrastinatics Anonymous" (I know there's no such word as "Procrastinatics" but it was so you could relate to "Alcoholics").
Procrastinating lead me to staying up until 5am doing my assignment, going to restless sleep until 7:30am, getting up and trying to finish your homework but end up falling asleep for another hour, getting up and try again, instead I procrastinated until I had to go to school at 1pm. I went to school, had to do a Microbiology practical at 1-3pm, went to the computer labs to finish off my assignment thinking "OH FARG! YOU ONLY HAVE 2 HOURS LEFT TO COMPLETE IT! >_<". Luckily I completed it by 5pm (which was when my next laboratory session started).
Anyway...I'll talk about our microbiology practical. Not much happened. Eliza, Marcus and I observed our own bacteria which came from our tonsils (yummy... -___-;;) then we used our saliva to place onto an agar plate so we could observe bacteria that came from it next week (oh joy...). Eliza managed to grow fungi again hehe...I shall call her...THE QUEEN OF FUNGUS!
Hmm...after I finished my assignment, we had the Chemistry practical. It was boring too. We built model atoms out of plastic and straws and we observed their shapes and determined their folds and angles. I'm not going to go into detail about the folds and stuff because it's so blardy complicated >_<;;.
Yay! Time to go home! I'm so tired -___-;;. I'm so glad I have temporary freedom though. I don't have any more assessment items to complete for this week! Yay! ^^
I went home, had a shower, ate dinner, watched TV (but I can't remember what was on TV...), got onto the computer, talked briefly to my friends. Wow...I just realised I didn't do anything online (besides talking to my friends, which I wasn't really...) but complete this memes thingy on deviantart. How sad. I've been on for 3.5 hours too...dude...I'm slow. Hehe...I guess I'm slow at everything. I take hours and hours to do a simple assignment. It'd take me hours and hours to do a simple memes too. Nuuuuuu >_<;; I wish I worked faster! Then I wouldn't be so stressed all the blardy time!
Anyway. I'm beet! Completing a hard assignment at the last minute is tiring work. Brain power: 0% (because there IS NO brain...).
Hmm...I probably won't sleep though, despite how tired I am. It's always like this. I'll probably stay up and read a book, or write a letter or something. *Shrugs* or I could just lie down in bed and sleep hehe ;).
*Goes to embrace her temporary freedom*

Time finished: 12:02am
Weather: Still boring...
Mood: Relaxed and drained @_@

Rebecca is back/Emily has her licence!/Drawing and Teaching/Cyclone Monica's coming!

Time started: 10:01pm
Place: My room
Weather: Calm before the storm
Mood: Worried

Hmm...I haven't written a blog in ages. I'll start with "Rebecca is back"

Rebecca is back:
Today I woke up at around 8am to go to school early and do my 6 assignments that were due today (hehe, talk about last minute). Well...I woke up early, but I went back to sleep again X_x. I said I'd meet Eliza at 9:30 am. She messaged me when it was close to 10 and my reaction was "OH S***!". I got ready as fast as I could and bolted to the computer labs where I was going to meet Eliza.
When I got there Eliza was busy with her chemistry practical write up. She was nearly finished. I just started my practical write up when I got there. Luckily it didn't take me too long to finish it. I wasn't in the right mind that day either because of the previous events the night before with Jarrad *grumbles*. Eliza went on with her 5 other microbiology assignments (which I had failed to start....hehe...) and soon got them done before she had to leave at 2:30pm. I got mine done half an hour after her which was good ^^. I think I did well with the assignments too. I handed in my and Eliza's assignments then went home to rest. Five hours straight of doing assignments really wears out your brain.
Anyway, at 6pm Erin and Brentley arrived. Erin was picking me up to take me to Hog's Breath Cafe (it's really a restaurant...) to meet up with Rebecca who came to visit from Katherine. I went over to Erin's for a while because Erin and Brentley had to take a shower. Then at quarted to 7 we went to pick up Emily and went to the city. When we arrived at the restaurant we walked in and Rebecca was nowhere to be found. We walked out and rang her mobile to ask where she was. "I'm in here waiting for you guys...where are you?" so we went back in again to look for her. Ahh...THERE she is XD.
We waited for about 15 minutes for a table then we finally got one. We ordered our meals (3 of us got Chicken Dijoinaise because we decided to be special) and waited for Lani who was supposed to arrive later. Yay! Lani arrived and we happily ate together and had odd conversations like we usually have. After our dinner we went to Rebecca's apartment just to sit and chat with each other for a while. Emily made this strange comment about Erin being a 40 year old man and Lani bursted into wild laughter for about 30 straight minutes (we had no idea why she found it so funny but it was amusing to watch her...). We stayed there until around 10:30pm then decided it was time for us to go home. Erin drove me and Emily home while we sang to Panic! At the Disco's album playing in the car ^^.
When I got home I just chatted with some friends online. Yay! Jarrad and I are talking to each other again XD. Anyway...late at night I watched a few episodes of Naruto (just because I was really bored) then went ot bed.

Emily has her licence!:
I slept in again -.-;;. I was supposed to wake up at 7:30am and walk over to Emily's house. I woke up at 8:15am from Emily messaging me asking when I was going to come...oops...I told her I slept in so she told me not to worry and she was going to pick me up. I got ready for her arrival then yay! Emily's here...with her car...with her DRIVING...with her LICENCE! About time she got her licence >__<" poor bugger XD. We had much doubt about which way Harvey Norman was too. We just kept driving down the highway and we knew that Harvey Norman was near this other place called "Wow". We were at these set of traffic lights and I said "hmm...maybe Harvey Norman isn't along this road. We should be there by now *looks to her right*...OH! WOW!" XD. Hahahahahahahaha...ha...heh...ehem...well...it was funny at the time! OKAY?! Yay! We arrived at Harvey Norman (for some odd reason Emily was going "WE'RE GONNA DIE! WE'RE GONNA DIE!" when we entered into the carpark (she's scared of her own driving lol). At Harvey Norman we tried to look for sofas that matched our shoes (there wasn't much success) then we looked at laptops and cameras and phones etc etc etc. When we got bored of Harvey Norman we went to Wow, the other electrical superstore. We had fun browsing the CDs they were selling (Yay! They had albums other than mainstream in there ^^). Soon we got bored of Wow too and so Emily drove us home. This was the last time I'd see Rebecca in a while so I gave her a hug and said goodbye. When I got home, I can't remember what I did. I think I just did homework and went online for pretty much the rest of the day. Drawing and Teaching:
Dang it >_< come ="S.">_<;;; It's not fair *cries*. He did have an image manipulating program though. I only had Paint XP. Anyway, when I was tired I went to bed. And now...time for the IMPORTANT part of this blog...

Cyclone Monica's coming!:
I woke up with no worries. It was 8am and I was about to head off to school to do some homework. Then I talked to Katerina before I was about to go and she reminded me about the cyclone warning. Gargh! I skipped school today so I could prepare for it. I packed up all my important belongings, filled in containers with drinking water and WORRIED!! X_x
If you want to know about it here's the site regarding the cyclone:
http://www.bom.gov.au/products/IDD65811.shtml (I don't know if this website updates itself or not...I got this site today.)
Well anyway, the cyclone's category 5, its name is Monica (in case you couldn't tell >_O), erm...it has the potential to wipe out the entire town...and is HEADING THIS WAY!! X_x
So...if I'm not online for a while...you'll know why (no no no! Don't assume I'm dead! It just means we've got no power and stuff...mih...I COULD be dead >_> but nah...I refuse to die hehe >_O).
After I packed up stuff I was really tired. I slept for a bit (wow, I've been sleeping a lot lately) and watched Naruto on my computer. Then I ate dinner, watched weather reports on TV (the cyclone's still coming) and got my lazy bum onto the computer again to talk to my friends (a lot of my Darwin friends aren't too worried...they're quite excited actually...).
Then I realised I haven't written a blog for ages so here I am...
Hmm...I hope I get to update this blog further in the future (in other words I hope I survive).
To all those reading this...TAKE CARE! I LOVE YOU ALL! *Hugs and kisses* I'm sure I'll survive the cyclone >_O

Tuesday's edit:
Well...the cyclone was heading the other way for a while (and it's down to category 1) but now it's heading back to Darwin again but it will merely be a bother. Don't worry...we're all going to stay alive XD.

Time finished: 10:59pm
Weather: Still calm before the storm
Mood: Hmm...I'm not sure...happy and worried at the same time? O_o

Good things can't last...

Time started: 10:59pm
Place: My room
Weather: Chill in the air
Mood: .

I studied unproductively until 2am. I gave up with trying so I went to bed. I got up at 7:30 in the morning (note: I didn't sleep a wink...) and slowly got ready to go to school. I arrived at the library at half past 8 in the morning. I just went through the bloody textbook for 3 hours non-stop. It was the first time in ages I managed to study for that long productively. Eliza soon arrived at school and that was enough to stop me. Her calculator died so we went to the Uni Shop to buy a new one. Then we went to sit by the basketball courts to eat our lunches and do a bit of studying.
Soon it was time for our Microbiology laboratory session. Oh joy, we measured the diameters of bacterial growth... -.-
Yeah, Eliza and I just got our practicals over and done with because we just wanted to leave. We went up to the cafeteria and studied there. Kylie soon came along and joined us. The cafe played the "Three Days Grace" album and instead of studying I was just singing the entire time. I just couldn't be stuffed anymore. Soon it was time for that dreaded moment. The Chemistry Mid-Semester Exam! Heart throbbing...we eventually had to go inside the room where we actually required to have our brain cells respire for once...the first few questions were great...then it just kept getting harder and harder and harder. I finished the exam an hour early so I checked through it again, there were a few questions I couldn't do but besides that I think I did okay overall.
When I got home I just relaxed. I didn't want to worry about anything. I was still at that carefree stage. I talked to Jarrad on the microphone all night. I was happy, he was happy, we got along, we created the a story about a man with no arms, one leg, no brain, and functioned with his liver...we just mucked around like the good old days...it hasn't been like that for ages...
Well....good things can't last...
Anyway...I had to do my oral today so after finishing having the happiest conversation in my life I got back to reality and prepared for my oral and progress report for my design group. I did the work until 5am, it wasn't good. I went to bed, woke up at 7:30am and got ready to go to the library to practise with the group at 8:30am. Our oral session began at 9 so we had to hurry up and get things done. When class was about to start the entire group felt so much dread. We were definitely beyond unprepared. We were the fourth group up. Katerina's group were first. They made us feel so stupid when they finished. When I spoke, I had such stage fright. I was trembling to the bone. I managed to get through my words though, so did everyone else. After we finished the tutor came up to our group personally and told us "You were the best group today". We just celebrated because we were so certain to do apallingly. We finished class an hour early today...Katerina and I walked over to my house and relaxed until quarter pass 12 in the afternoon. We then caught the bus from my house to Casuarina to have some lunch. The both of us were broke so we just went window shopping for a couple of hours. We did that until 3 and took the bus back to my house. Kat and I drank creaming soda (one thing we DID buy)and didn't do much, bumming around in my room until it was time for Katerina's class which started at 5.
After she left I just bummed around the computer. I played Go (Japanese Containment Chess) with Jasper online. Obviously I lost by a long shot. I talked to Jarrad as well. We were happy still, getting along just fine. Then he brought up something, made me awkward, and we just stopped talking...me and my stupid feelings for him...it's ruining our friendship. Perhaps it's already ruined. He left without saying goodnight, one of the signs of "I can't deal being friends with you because you're in love with me and I can't deal with that...". Right now it just feels like my heart's been stabbed over and over again and it's just slowly bleeding to death. Then it got stolen from me, got chucked to the ground and just got trampled on all over. How many times has this happened already? I still have my heart to give...it's all torn, tattered, broken and worthless yet I still offer it...why?
Um...yeah...been crying for hours now. Great. Got homework to do too. I'll skip that. Too sad to do anything. Pathetic!
Go cry on your bed, emo girl. Shut up and leave the world alone! No one needs to know your insecurities.

Time finished: 2:13am (yeah, I took ages...so what? You try writing a blog while you're crying your eyes out and not thinking about anything else but the one you love and how much you screwed up with your friendship!)
Weather: Nothing's happening!
Mood: .

Stupid Judgements! What?! No Stress?! What's going on?!

Time started: 12:12am
Place: My room
Weather: Cool & Calm
Mood: Same as the weather to an extent, but at the back of my mind it's yelling "BE STRESSED!!!!"

After my last entry I just did a bit of homework for a few hours then got back online in the evening and talking in this mass conversation with some of my closest friends. An awful thing happened that night though. I added Ken into the conversation (he's a US Marine) and Jarrad started insulting him because he was 1. American, 2. A Marine. He said the harshest things and Ken got really offended and they ended up yelling at each other. I was disgusted with Jarrad's behaviour! I just couldn't believe that I fell in love with this guy! I tried my hardest to comfort Ken...it worked. He's understanding. Fortunately it wasn't long until Jarrad realised how much of an arsehole he was being. He was absolutely disgusted with himself and I felt really bad for him. I cried actually because I couldn't bear to see him like that. I got really worried because I've never seen him this upset but I was glad he admitted he was wrong and sincerely (I hope) apologised to Ken. They both apologised to me for fighting. The world is so judgemental these days. I hate it when people base their decisions about a person just on what country they come from, especially when they know nothing about the person. As much as I hated what Jarrad done that doesn't stop the fact that we're best friends and I stuck with (not for!) him until he went to bed. I think he hated himself that night. I know the feeling, it's not nice. Ken felt fine in no time though (that's the spirit! Don't get put down by silly things that people say!). I'm glad he's okay.
I talked to my other faithful friends until I had to get off. I was still in a pretty bad mood though...
The next morning I did my Chemistry Lecture online (rather than at school, stupid Lecturer!) and I talked to Ken. Ken was happy =). I was still really worried about Jarrad so I messaged him to try to make him happy =). Then it was time for my second lecture. I went to school, met up with Kat and Eliza for lunch. Kat talked about her Easter holiday and how she did stuff with her family. Eliza and I didn't talk much hehe but we listened intently =P. For Anatomy & Physiology we had a relief lecturer and I don't think anyone learnt anything from her. For the entire lecture I just drew a collage in my little drawing book ^^. Jade made some contributions into the collage as well ^^. We got let out of the lecture an hour early so we had a two hour break. Jade and I sat near the basketball court, ate chips, and studied Anatomy & Physiology together. I never knew Jade very well at high school. I'm glad that I was getting to know her better now =). It was nice to know that I was an option for her to have someone to talk to as well since she had no close friends around at Uni and had a tough time with dealing her emotions with life too. It was a good feeling, getting along with her, someone I didn't know very well, this afternoon at school.
Soon it was time for my final lecture, Microbiology, so I said goodbye to Jade and went to class. Jim, our lecturer put me and Eliza to sleep. Good ol' Jim. He's great at doing that...
Yay! We got let out an hour and 20 minutes early =). I went home, ate dinner, watched TV with my mum then had the intention of going into my room to do my assignment on the computer but DANG MSN! MSN IS DISTRACTING! I went online and talked to Jarrad and Jasper. Mostly Jarrad. He seemed happy again =). I don't know why, but I had a feeling he wanted to talk to me tonight. I think tonight he was telling me "thank you" in his own special, untelling way. *Bounce bounce bounce!*
Then I appeared offline so I could concentrate on my studying.
Hmm...but however, tonight...for the very first time in my life I feel under control, like I have no worries despite the fact that I have a midsemester exam worth 20% tomorrow and an oral presentation on Thursday and millions of things due on Friday. This is sooooooooooooooooooooo not my normal self. What's going on?! WHY AM I NOT STRESSING?! Oh well...it feels great not to stress (for now...it'll probably all sink in tomorrow the minute before the exam). I think I'll regret not stressing tonight because it's discouraging me to not work or study...but I just want to embrace this feeling. I feel so refreshed! I have this theory that I'm feeling like this because of Jarrad. I think I'm happy that he really loves, needs and appreciates me as a friend....I hope XD. And that after that stupid argument he had last night, Jarrad changed, in a good way....I hope XD. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being stupid again X_x.
Anyway...I'm going to study now. Maybe this no stress is beneficial because I'll eventually study productively ^_^. Stressing never really helped during study...come to think of it. I think tonight while I'm studying I'll enjoy it more because I'm in a good mood ^_^. Wieee! For the first time in my life, tonight I'm optimistic about myself. I like this feeling. OKAY! *Discipline comes in* TIME TO STUDY!!!!

Time finished: 12:55am
Weather: Cool & Calm
Mood: Strangely stress free ^_^

Black Jack, Gang Up, Under the Night Sky and British Comedy

Time started: 11:58am
Place: My room
Weather: Fine :)
Mood: Pretty good ^^

In the morning I just did a bit of homework (stupid tutor hasn't emailed me back yet...I don't think she ever will... >_<). Nothing much happened yesterday. In the afternoon I taught and I was particularly strict yesterday but at the end I gave my students easter eggs so they can't complain ;). I'm going to increase my teaching charge from $30 an hour to $40 an hour. My piano teacher's complaining that I'm charging too cheap for my experience. Well...I guess she's right...I have been teaching for 4 years but everyone's skeptical about a teenager teaching...so...meh =P. I felt a bit sad after teaching. Kae-jenn begged me to stay in Darwin for next year so I could still teach him =( that made me feel incredibly sad. It is very true that I am going to miss my students terribly...*sigh* I wish the university here was better...then I wouldn't have to go...but then again, moving out would probably be a good option for me since I am "too dependent" at the moment. Anyway...Lani came over at quarter to 6 to pick me up and take me to Liz's party. After she picked me up we went to pick up Niamh. This was the first time I've seen Niamh in months, since our graduation. She went down to Adelaide to study. Her family moved to Aaron and Caitlin's former house (before Aaron and Caitlin moved down to Adelaide...wow...everyone's gone/going to Adelaide and Melbourne...). We then went off to our half an hour drive to Liz's house (in some countries a half an hour drive isn't very far...but in relation to Darwin...it's FAR!!!). When we got there, Sara, Ross, Erin, and Brentley were already there talking with Liz and David. They were all downstairs, sitting in a circle listening to music. We talked for a few minutes then some of us went to go get some Pizza and drinks from the store. I stayed behind with Erin and Brentley and we played Black Jack. I kept on getting 16 for my first two cards and my first hit is ALWAYS 10 >_<. I got 26 like...100 times that night. I swear...if Black Jack was 26 to win...I'd be filthy rich if I was really gambling =P. After everyone came back with the food, Ross and David joined in. Ross and David were funny, they kept switching cards with each other so they both would get as close to 21 as possible. David kept on doing his evil grin and it was really creeping me and everyone else out (Liz does that grin too...I guess it must be a Crossley thing...genetics perhaps...their father, Chris does it too XD). After we got tired with Black Jack we stuffed ourselves with Pizza and chocolate muffins. Sara and I hogged the hawaiian pizza box hehe...Erin hogged the creaming soda >:0 but hehe...^^ at least we managed to get Ross not to hog anything ^^ (he wasn't particularly happy...). Later people wanted to play "Spotlight" but I was sad enough to bring some of my homework along...while everyone played spotlight I went into Neil's room (Liz's eldest brother who was in Germany) and did my Design & Innovation homework. I actually did a lot of work =D. When I was done, Liz came up to asked me to play "Gang Up" with them. Great timing too because I just finished my homework. We went out to the back and to Palmeston High (which was directly behind her house). David and I were it so we ran around the school looking for the others. I managed to tag Lani, Sara, Niamh and Liz...go me ^^. I wasn't as unfit as I thought too because they made me run around the school several times XD. Yay! I still have my stamina ^^. Dang Ross was the last one to get tagged...that boosted his ego for a while >=(. After our game of gang up, we dragged our tired bodies back to the house. We just listened to music, sang and talked to each other. Niamh's parents soon came to pick her up. This was probably the last time I was going to see her in months so I gave her a nice hug even though she hates hugs XD. Then we were bored again so we went back to the school and just hung around the basketball court. Erin and Brentley sat at the benches, Lani, David and I just layed down on the basketball court gazing at the sky above (there were a lot of storm clouds...hmm...it was really nice though =D). Liz and Sara were up in the trees talking and Ross was just switching from the basketball court to the trees...I could stay out laying on the basketball court looking up at the sky all night. It was so relaxing and beautiful ^^ but then it was about to rain so we hurried back to the house. Ross' parents then came to pick him up so...it was goodbye to Ross...
We sat in the lounge room and watched "Coupling", a British comedy. It was hilarious XD it was about desperate men and women who were good friends with each other discussing their love lives XD (or lack of). We watched the entire season, then Brentley & Erin went to sleep. Then we watched Monty Python (forgot which one) and it was absurd humour. I liked Coupling better though. By the time we finished watching it was 4am and by the time we got ready to sleep it was half past four. Everyone else was ready to sleep but I was too wide awake (as usual >_<). Liz slept in her own room, Brentley, Erin and Lani slept in Neil's and Sara and I slept in the entertainment room. I stayed up listening to my iPod all night and texted messaged Daniel from England back and forth (he started it XD). I also watched Sara sleep (well there wasn't much else to do, was there?) and she is such a peaceful sleeper. She just stayed in this position for about 4 hours...(lol! I really need to stop being an insomniac...). Ooh! I did sleep a bit...but I woke up at 5:15am and I thought: Hmm...that wasn't very long... -____-;; Lani woke up at around 10am and she was the one to take me home. Everyone else was still sleeping so we left without saying goodbye. Sara left too. We left at around 10:30am and I guess that was the end of the party =P. I was glad that there was no alcohol involved in the party. The initial plan of the party was to drink. If there was I wasn't going to drink anyway =D. Anyway...now I'm home and I haven't done anything (besides eat breakfast...). I hope I get to see my friends soon. I haven't laughed so much for a long time. I'm always laughing the loudest when I'm with my friends =D. I'm glad that we still manage to get together after we've graduated from high school :). I guess that's what true friends are for =D

Time finished: 12:47pm
Weather: Still quite fine =)
Mood: Good ^^

Manic Depression is not nice....

Time started: 1:20am
Place: My room
Weather: Just stopped raining
Mood: I would have no idea

Mum and I went to Casuarina first thing this morning to buy easter eggs. I got easter eggs for my students and some for Liz's Easter party tomorrow. Poor mother strained her shoulder muscle yesterday so she couldn't work today. While I was shopping, Samatha messaged me saying how bored she was. *Sigh* I miss my Sammy Wammy :(
Later we walked around Casuarina aimlessly and all of a sudden, without any warning, I felt depressed. I had no idea why. I started being negative and mean towards my mother. I regret it now. I always regret it. It didn't help with the fact that my mother was in pain too...
Later we had lunch at McDonald's (we both had the healthy salads plus choice of Thai Chicken Baguette) and all of a sudden I was in a good mood again. I guess it was because there were so many young kids around who were all so adorable and there was this couple sitting near us who were kissing each other like there was no tomorrow XD. *Sigh* then depression hit me like a hammer again soon before we finished lunch and I felt like that for most of the rest of the day. When I was driving home I drove so bad because I was in such a bad mood. I'm a decent driver and I always drive well but I was so depressed, I went into second gear when I was supposed to go into fourth, and I stalled before moving off after I gave way too...I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me...
When we arrived home, the lawn needed to be mowed. I said I'd do it today because my mum's shoulder was in a lot of pain. Then she just took the lawnmower out and started mowing. I ran out and told her to stop and I'll do it. She yelled at me like I was some imbicile. I desperately told her to rest but that stubborn woman just wouldn't budge from the lawnmower. She's a workaholic. Feeling useless, I gave up and went into my room and played my music loudly. I felt so down I just screamed. Then I drew random patterns while listening to "Comforting Sounds" by Mew. It has very inspirational music. A very good song to doodle to.
All of a sudden it began to rain really heavily outside and mum was still outside mowing the lawn so I quickly ran to open the door for her and make it easier for her to get back inside. When I opened the door, she just screamed at me saying "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT?!". That stabbed me really deep, the moment she said that. I ran back into my room, locked myself in and cried of course. I was already unstable...I was prone to getting hurt...
I thought about dad again, wondering if he ever felt this way, hurt, by my mother and myself. Yes, he did walk out on us...but I stopped and thought, was it us that walked out on him? I wish I could tell him how much I love him, no matter how much he hates me...I wish he acknowledges my existence at least...I want my dad :(
During the evening, it started to pour down a lot again then Stephen suddenly showed up. He was soaking wet. He took shelter in our house and we made him some dinner. I never see Stephen much anymore ever since he dropped out of school last year. Stephen and I went through a lot last year, it was good to see him again. It was sad when the rain stopped. I had to say goodbye to him again. Once again I felt alone.
I went back into my room, I tried to do my homework but I was too miserable. Mum just stayed outside in the living room and watched late night movies. I talked to Augustine and sang for the entire night. Now I'm not sure if I'm happy or miserable. It's so hard to tell. Jun was online for a while :) but she disconnected and couldn't get back on. Now everyone's asleep and the only person I'm talking to is good ol' Erik *huggles Erik*. I know for once you're going to read this blog because I'm going to tell you to!! >:0 Dang straight! Yeah, just want to let you know, thanks for being the bouncy friend you are and making me happy when I am down *huggles*.
Well...that sums up my day...

Time finished: 1:49am
Weather: Dead
Mood: Miserable

Unnoticed Separation Anxiety

Time started: 9:59pm
Place: My room
Weather: Dull
Mood: Depressed

Great...I'm back to my dark corner again in my mind, just sitting there, crying. I had trouble waking up from a dream. I was very involved in my dream but I can't remember a thing. I can't remember if it was a good or a bad dream but when I woke up, I felt like I was brought back from the dead.
My stupid tutor for Design & Innovation hasn't replied to my email yet regarding my progress presentation. I emailed her 2 nights ago. I thought they were supposed to check their emails like 2 times a day. Now I've been sitting in front of my computer for 2 days stumped on what I'm supposed to do, waiting for her to reply >_<. I hate university now. It's so pointless and sucking out so much of my life. I hate life more and more as the working days pass. My university is so crap...crap teachers...crap subjects...crap homework...and they wonder why they're the lowest ranking university in Australia, if not the world! I am so unmotivated to do any work right now... I was in no working mood so I drew instead. Since it's Easter, I drew a picture for deviantart ^_^. Overall I'm quite proud of it. It's my first digital drawing. I did the lineart by pencil then I did everything else on Paint.Net and Microsoft Paint. I wish I had photoshop though :(...by the way, I was listening to "Shespider" all day on repeat still. Anyway...nothing happened today which made me even more depressed. I missed a lot of people too. The loneliness today was torturous. At night I went to watch some TV for once. "Super Nanny" was on. It was rather good actually, seeing how the Nanny taught the parents how to raise their troublesome kids better. Then I cried. I missed my dad again. I felt so miserable. I just want him. I don't know why I miss him so much. I barely know him. Even though he doesn't take much notice of me I just couldn't help feeling his loneliness. I wanted to be with him, to keep him company. I didn't care if he didn't love me very much. I just wanted to be a part of his life and have him in mine...*sigh* he'll never know of my separation anxiety for him. No one notices...
You know...I guess it sounds a bit stupid to say "my heart is breaking" but this statement was created for a reason. There really is this stabbing pain in your chest as if your heart really is breaking.
I'm regretting my sources of happiness these last few days too...I didn't mention what it was (and I probably won't) in my blog specifically but it's really haunting my thoughts now and it won't go away. I wish it would because it's making my life so bloody complicated...I'm so stupid. I've made the same stupid mistakes again...
I wish this part of me would just go away...

Time finished: 10:17pm
Weather: Dead
Mood: Deep regret

Swedish Lessons, Marathons: Naruto, Sleeping

Time started: 11:51pm
Place: My room
Weather: About to rain
Mood: Happy ^^

Last night I spent the entire night on msn learning Swedish from Erik ^^. It's so much fun :D. I ended up learning 2 pages worth of Swedish that night ^^ (what was disturbing was I found out that kiss = urine in Swedish). Anyway...I just had a marvellous time last night with the Swedish lesson ^^ *huggles Ewik*.
Anyways...Samantha came over this morning at half past 8 in the morning...YAY! *Huggles her Sammy Wammy*. We talked on msn for a bit and had a video convo with Erik, then he went to bed, then Baggy (except Samantha was hiding from the camera the whole time). Then I pressed something and it looked like I disconnected from msn. Little did I know, Bag could still see us in the webcam. We watched 11 episodes of Naruto non-stop. Samantha loved it ^^ and I left the poor bugger in suspense...and we didn't realise that Baggy could still see us. STALKER! YOU'RE A STALKER (nah, he didn't realise we didn't know...). Goodness...it's creepy knowing that he could see us without us realising :S (don't worry Baggy, I trust you and it's not like you get to see us do bad things on my bed >_O).
Tchya! Samantha soon had to go *is sad*. I miss Sammy :(. I had a marvelous time having her around. WAH! T_T I miss Sam T_T.
Well...after that, I talked to Baggy on msn and discovered his stalker moment >_O then I got tired all of a sudden and slept for hours and hours...the best sleep I've had in aaaaaages ^^.
I had dinner at 9pm. Eggplant, vegies and rice...mmmmmm ^_^. Then I browsed through deviantart (89 new messages in one day?!? X_x), talking to Jasper, Liz, Erin, Daniel, and Joanna on msn and yeah...that pretty much wrapped up my day ^^.

Time finished: 12:06am
Weather: Raining hard
Mood: Still happy ^^

Frustration >_<

Time started: 7:18pm
Place: My room
Weather: Calm
Mood: Somewhat content

The crab dinner at Jasper's place was lovely ^^ (although I didn't have any crab because that day there was a crab scuttling around my backyard...). After dinner I spent hours and hours in Jasper's room trying to figure out how to plug in his computer and burn DVDs...I was on the phone to Jasper for hours and hours asking him how to work his computer. It just wouldn't work and it was really frustrating and I was starting to get angry at everyone because I wasn't in such a good mood in the first place -.-
I was in there for 6 hours and all that effort was wasted. We didn't burn a thing. Now I had to go home and stay up til sunrise doing homework -.-
Ahh well...I was listening to "SheSpider" the whole time I was trying to work it lol.
Meh...well right now I'm out of that bad mood. The day wasn't too good though.
My design group were going to meet up at the University Library at 2pm except Brydie was going to leave at 3 and Ben was going to come at 3 (due to their working times). Then Ben messages me at like...10 o'clock in the morning saying "I don't have work today, we can meet at any time" grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I messaged everyone else to meet up at the library at 12. At least we got the entire group this way. Well...we're almost finished but the group's still really unorganised, we haven't run through our oral (and today was like the only day we could practise it before our real thing) *stress stress stress* we are so screwed! X_x (Oh yeah...I was still listening to "SheSpider") XD
After our meeting which finished at 3, yet we didn't get anywhere really, I went home and slept until the evening (so tired from all this stress and frustration). I woke up and here I am being a computer bum again. No one's talking to me right now *cries* except for Ewik ^^...good ol' Ewik ^^. *Huggles Ewik*
Mihmimimimih! Sleep is so good. I should try not to be an insomniac. Then I wouldn't be so frustrated so often. I'm so relaxed and happy now after sleeping. ^^
I should probably get some homework done though...I have so much to do during this Easter break. MIDSEMESTER EXAMS! ARGH! X_x
Anyway...I'll avoid thinking about that for now. Samantha's coming over tomorrow morning (or so I hope) ^^ yay! I wuv my Sammy ^^

Time finished: 8:31pm
Weather: Why is it so hot?
Mood: Happier

Abnormal addiction/Mood swings

Time started: 5:23pm
Place: My room
Weather: Nothing significant
Mood: Bipolar

Yes, it's abnormal to listen to the same song on repeat non-stop since you first got it. I can't stop listening to it X_x. *Nods* yes, it's still "Shespider" by Mew. Found out that it was a protest song against the Danish Government and since I found that out I analysed it and loved the song even more. I'm not going to go into any detail about my analysis though.
I woke up at 8am (I slept...yay...), got online and just talked to Erik and Lisa. I setted off to the University's Library to meet up with my design group to make our progress presentation. Everyone turned up except for Ben which sucked because we couldn't do our presentation properly. He couldn't meet up with us tomorrow too so we're pretty much screwed because there aren't any other days we can do our presentation before our real thing on Thursday after school starts. Well...at least we got a lot of work done without him.
I came back, and had an interesting argument about music for Lisa, against Baggy. I felt bad after that though. Sorry Baggy! *Hugs Baggy*. It was an interesting argument though ^^.
You know...I think I've listened to this song like 300 times in a row...sad I know. I'm surprised that I'm loving it more each time I listen to it. I'm listening to it now as I'm writing this blog. Gargh! I hate myself for ruining the song but I cannot part with it.
Hours pass...still listening to the song...and I all of a sudden felt depressed again. I miss my dad. I love him so much and I hate him so much. I want him here with me. I want him to be part of my life. Yes I know I should be "happy with what I've got" but...
I'm so bad...I'm taking my depression out on my friends...I'm not talking to them much. I can't be bothered with anything either...this is a really bad habit of mine and I need to fix it instead of ignoring those who are trying to help me...
I'm going to have Crab dinner with Jasper's mum tonight. Jasper's mum and sister are moving to Timor soon. I hope it will be a good night. I'll probably be singing "Shespider" for the entire dinner though...I sang it in the shower...I'm going to miss them...life has changed so much this year. So many people are gone...
I'm so emo...that's not good. I can't move on with a lot of things...I'm completely fragile and bipolar. The smallest things can make me so happy...and the smallest things can make me so depressed too. Why do I have to be so sensitive? I'm so worn out with all my emotions. I just want to feel emotionless for one little while...
So many mistakes in my life...so hard to fix...I can't let go...I can't fall out of love...everything is just so dear for me...everything...
I'm so tired...

Time finished: 5:45pm
Weather: Nothing significant
Mood: Dead

Happy 17th Birthday, Danmei!

Time started: 9:53am
Place: My room
Weather: Bright and sunny ^^
Mood: Pweety good

First of all I would just like to say "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DANMEI!!!". I haven't seen you for ages! >_< I hope wherever you are today, you're having a great day...I miss you!
Hmm...what did I do yesterday? Not a lot. I had fun talking to Baggie and Lisa ^^. Lisa and I were just being mean to Baggie about his lame taste of music and I was teasing him about being a BOY because he is one ;)
I sent Baggie a bunch of decent romantic songs and he's currently in lurrrrrrve with "This Time Imperfect" by AFI. Hmm...maybe I shouldn't have sent him that song XD.
I also talked to Nizar for nearly the whole day. We were just singing to each other over the microphone. It was fuuuun ^^.
Later I just downloaded and watched some Naruto. I hate cliffhangers >_< the suspense is KILLING ME! XD
Hmm...My mother was feeling grumpy so I cooked spaghetti bolognaise for her for dinner. She was still grumpy though :(.....
In the evening I had an audio conversation with Jarrad and Jasper ^^. It was fun and I was happy for quite a while but then...I felt depressed. I'm never going to get over him -.-;;
I talked to my aunt from the US for the rest of the night. It's nice to talk to family. Then I went to bed.
It's morning and here I am...being a bum on the computer. DID YOU KNOW THAT OUTSIDE ERIK'S HOUSE, THE MUSIC VIDEO FOR "SAVE TONIGHT" BY EAGLE EYE CHERRY WAS WHERE IT WAS FILMED? THAT'S SO COOL! XD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bv6EhThBeG0&search=save%20tonight%20eagle%20eye%20cherry you can see the reflection of this door lol XD. "Anyway...you can see my door through the reflection at the beginning...keep that image in your mind for your trip to Sweden" XD
Hmm...I think I should go study for my mid-semester exams now =P. Hehe...
I guess that's all for now then.

Time finished: 10:57am <-- yeah, it took me ages because I had a lot of distractions, k? XD
Weather: Bright and sunny ^^ the birds are chirping and everything XD
Mood: Cheery ^^

Assignment Marathon is COMPLETE! SINGING IS FUN! =D

Time started: 5:48pm
Place: My room
Weather: Sunny
Mood: Singing

FINALLY!!!!!!! I FINISHED ALL MY HOMEWORK!!!!!!! I HAVE NOT SLEPT FOR 7 DAYS AND IT FEELS SO BLOODY GOOD!!!!!!
Okay, on Thursday night I had my Chemistry practical write up, Microbiology write up and Design and Innovation critical reading to get done by Friday. I managed to finish my Chemistry prac (woohoo), half finish my Micro and barely started on my Critical reading. I stayed up til about 6am doing everything then I kinda got too tired so I zoned out until 9am and went to uni to get cracking on my unfinished assignments. I was in the computer labs with Eliza doing our work until 4:30pm X_x. After 7.5 long hours we finally finished it all! I felt so tired but so relieved.
I also did my Anatomy & Physiology test and I got 90% YAY!!!!! ^.^
Samantha came to visit at about 3pm after school :) it was so nice to see her again. I haven't seen her for a while. I felt bad for not entertaining her much. I hope she can come over these holidays. I wanna kidnap her and make her watch Naruto XD
When I got home at 5pm I just CRASHED INTO BED AND SLEPT! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
It was such a glorious one and a half hours of sleep XD. Nadine woke me up with a phone call asking if I could help her get a job XD. Poor Nadine :(
After the phone call I just got up and watched a bit of Naruto on my computer until 11pm and went back to sleep (yay!). I slept until 8am! Woohoo! I haven't slept so much for aaaaaaaaaaaaages ^_^. In the morning I talked to Birdie ^^ and terrorised him with my singing (it put him to sleep) ;)...well...that's my interpretation anyway coz he's currently sleeping like a rock...I think...
After that I was in a really singing mood so I terrorised Nizar all afternoon with my singing. I heard him sing! YAY! ^^ SINGING IS A LOT OF FUN, YOU KNOW!! LA LA LA LA LAAAA.
I think I have a sore throat now for singing all day. Wow...I've been singing for 10 hours O_o;;
KIRBY DANCE, PEOPLE!
(>^_^)>
<(^_^<)
^(^_^)^
V(^_^)V
<(^_^)>
(>^_^<)
Hehe...that's enough psychoticness for now XP.
I think I'm going to download some more Naruto (hehe, I haven't watched Naruto for ages...) and just relaaaaaaaax!
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( 'O')
( ()<3()
O ("")("") <-- look! I made a teddybear holding a heart <3
Mmk....not much to say when you're happy. Just lots of smiling and singing and randomness :D
I hope this one week holiday will be a long one...but then again, time flies when you're having fun =P.
Relaxin feels so good!

Time finished: 6:22pm
Weather: Fine
Mood: Happy but tired

Lunch & Assignments

Time started: 3:51am
Place: My room
Weather: Breezy
Mood: Brain dead X_x

*Yawns* I still haven't slept a wink. I've been awake for 7 days now. I'll be going to school in 5 hours and today I'm handing in 5 assignments. I've done them all (finally) except for the Microbiology practical (which won't take very long to finish) and the critical reading for Design & Innovation (I hate it! I've only done 60 words out of 300...). I can't be stuffed at the present moment so I'll just put in a blog...then attempt to sleep for the first time in a week!!!
Here's what happened yesterday:
I went to school at 9am for Design & Innovation Tutorial. My group and I got our oral planned out. We got our first critical readings back today and I'm quite disappointed with my mark. I got 70%. It's not bad...but I just feel disappointed with it.
After our tutorial (we finished half an hour early...yay!) Kat and I went to meet Eliza at the computer labs. She was busy doing her Chemistry practical (poor bugger, she has no computer at home so she has to come to school and do as much work as possible in the labs). Sammy then came and met up with us in the labs too. At around 12:30pm Sara and Liz arrived to come pick Kat, Sam and me up. Sadly Eliza can't go because of the practicals she was doing. Sara drove us to Casuarina and we met up with Erin there. Erin was all black and white today. She reminded me of a chess board XD (mind you, a very good looking chess board >_O). We sat around at a table and ate our nummy lunches. I just had a small burger from KFC (meh...something unhealthy X_x). After lunch we went to JB Hi-fi and I bought Panic! At the Disco's album "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out" ^.^! Then we just walked aimlessly around Casuarina. Katerina was looking for burn cream (I accidentally said "burning cream" and Liz commented "Yes, it's a cream that bursts into flames when you put it on your skin") because she burnt herself on the arm while she was working at KFC. We also helped her look for superhero costumes (she had to dress up as a superhero for the weekend for some reason). We couldn't find any stereotypical superhero costumes for her so we just told her to dress up as the easter bunny with wings (the "Fairy Easter Bunny"). That can be a hero...right? It was easter soon so the shops were selling all these bunny ears.
Soon Erin, Liz, and Sara went home. Kat and Sam had a class at 5 and I wanted to go back to Uni to help Eliza and do some of my assignments. We took the 3 o'clock bus back to Uni. We hung around the computer labs until 4:30. I helped Eliza with the Chemistry practical while I was doing mine as well. She helped me out too with the enthalpy calculations. Kat and Sam went to class, Eliza had to catch the bus home so I saw no point sticking around at school so I walked back home. In a previous blog I mentioned that my head was like a 10 tonne brick...well...now it's more like...100 tonnes >_<;; (I'm literally swaying from side to side trying to keep my heavy head up while I'm writing this blog entry!).
When I got home I procrastinated for a while, had spaghetti bolognaise for dinner (yum! My fave!) then at around 7:30pm I began doing my assignments. Well, I can safely say that I've been working productively since that time til I started writing this blog up doing my assignments. That's nearly 8.5 hours of doing assignments straight! What a life I lead! Okay...seriously...if I don't go to sleep now I'm going to die! I'm surprised that I can actually type! Well...I'm just going to wish myself luck here for tomorrow (technically it's today...) because I gotta do an Anatomy & Physiology test (which I'm going to fail dreadfully) and finish my Microbiology practical write up and Design & Innovation Critical Reading. JIA YOU (Chinese saying, literally meaning "Add Oil!" to encourage some motivation for a challenging task)!

Time finished: 4:12am
Weather: Breezy
Mood: If I don't go to sleep now, I'm going to KILL someone! >_<;;

Pidgeon Intimidator! Drunk Alone! You Know!

Time started: 1:53am
Place: My room
Weather: Breezy
Mood: Unmotivated

Oh joy...I stayed up til 5am doing the Tutorial questions that were supposed to be handed in today. It's so gay how our Lecturer only taught us how to do the questions the DAY BEFORE the thing was due -.- so really we had one day to do it. Gay gay gay!!! Even at 5am I didn't finish so I was like...bleargh...and did nothing until 9:30am when I finished them off (and finished at 11:30am). I was so tired...I was dreading going to school. Seriously, as I was walking to school, I was NODDING OFF TO SLEEP! -_____-;;
Hmm...nothing much happened during the Microbiology laboratory session today. We just smeared bacteria on the agar plate, put antibiotics on them, then left the labs. Yay! We finished 1 and a half hours early!
Eliza and I then went to the cafe upstairs and had some food. There was this pidgeon (really small, chubby and cute) walking around the balcony. Eliza threw crumbs at the bird. The little bugger ate everything on the floor BUT the crumbs. Eliza got offended so she got up and chased the bird with her arms waving frantically in the air while screaming "RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!!!". O_O <-- this was the expression on my face. ELIZA, YOU PSYCHO!! That poor bird practically lived at the balcony, so it flew back. Then Eliza went and scared it off again. It flew back, she chased it again, this went on and on until the bird was so distressed it stood at the edge of the balcony, had this look on its face like "life is just too hard!" kind of a look, then jumped off without opening its wings as if it was committing suicide. By then Eliza was cracking up laughing. I kinda found it amusing too but I mostly felt so sorry for the bird. I mean, whoever's being chased around by this psychotic girl ought to be felt sorry for! Not to fear! All is well! The bird's okay and got away from this lunatic of a friend of mine =P. I don't think it will go back to the cafe any time soon. Poor bugger =(
Later we went to the cafe downstairs and sat with Kylie and her friend (I forgot what his name was =S). We talked about the pidgeon incident and other random stuff. Ooh...Kylie's a day younger than me, and we thought maybe we could have a joint 18th. When I said "hey, do you want to have a joint party?" Kylie's friend cracked up laughing and made smoking actions with his fingers and I just rolled my eyes. The things people think of these days >_<. NO I AM NOT GONNA HAVE A BONG PARTY >_<;;!!! However Kylie and I thought: hmm...we could just stay in our rooms by ourselves on our birthday getting drunk happily...hide in the closet...make friends with the mothballs and say "Heehee...I'm Harry Potter" XD. It's not like Kylie and I are gonna go clubbing or have people buy drinks for us right? Might as well make the best of it the only way we could...hehe... (btw, don't take me too seriously about what I thought we were going to do for our birthday lol).
4pm, time for our Chemistry Lecture. We would normally have a tutorial instead but since we're soooooo behind we had to use our tutorial sessions as lecture sessions. I haven't slept since last Friday so I was like dead X_x by the time we were in the lecture. The lecture was an hour long and what I did was I tallied up the number of times our lecturer said "you know". She uses it all the time and it's so stupid because SHE CAN'T EXPLAIN THINGS! She also goes "so um" all the time (except it sounds like "sohvum" because she's Indian and she pronounces things funny). By the end of the lecture I tallied up 217 "you knows" and at one stage she used "you know" 10 times in one sentence. It was hilarious XD. Yeeeeeeah...that was my productive time in my lecture =P.
Oh joy...time for our Chemistry practical -.-;;. Well...nothing much happened during this session either...we watched liquids go hot and cold...yayness -.-;;. At least we left half and hour early which has NEVER happened. It must be a LEAVE YOUR PRACTICALS EARLY day. My lovely psychotic friend drove me home because I was way too sleepy to walk home =).
I zoned out for about 3 hours and then reality slapped me on the face. I had an assignment due tomorrow and 5 due on Friday! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!! >.<;;
So far I've finished the one that's due tomorrow. I need to get cracking on the ones due on Friday though. I'm gonna go do that now...how sad...I don't get to procrastinate *cries* T_T (but I have a feeling I will...).

TIme finished: 2:18am
Weather: Breezy
Mood: Tired enough to do a Triathlon (you know...the stage you're so tired you're just too active...I haven't slept for 6 days and counting X_x).

Cold, Windy, Wet, and STRESS!!!

Time started: 3:50pm
Place: Charles Darwin University Library
Weather: COLD, WINDY AND WET INCASE YOU COULDN'T TELL!!
Mood: STRESSED! >.<

Again I didn't sleep at all last night. Stayed online until about 4am talking to Jun, Lou and Baggy. I heard Baggy's voice...muahahahaha XD and O_O singing!! Gorgeous singing there Baggy...u're the first bloke I've heard in years singing XD
Anyway...I was not enthusiastic about going to school...it's another 11 hour day at school again -.-
In my Chemistry Lecture, I was so bored, my concentration didn't exist, I was literally falling asleep for the first 2/3 of the lecture. Then at the last half hour I decided to do some drawing. I drew some of the students in front of me who also looked bored, and my lecturer at the front blabbering away not knowing how to explain things properly XD. Tehehe, Eliza wants a copy of my drawing. I'll post it up on deviantart when I go home.
Finally it was noon! Yay! We can escape from the long and boring 3 hour Chemistry lecture! Eliza and I went to meet up with Kat.E at the cafe upstairs. Then for the next hour I was a tomato. I SAW THE VERY FIRST BOY I LIKED IN 7TH-8TH GRADE RIGHT NEXT TO US PLAYING POOL! >.<>.<). Yeah...I was like blushing for all of lunch looking like a tomato -.- I haven't seen him for...well...4 years? I'm so mad at myself for not having the courage to talk to him >.<;;
Anyway...it was time for my Anatomy & Physiology lecture. We didn't do much but learn about the cardiovascular system and blood. We got let out an hour early...yay! I walked out of the lecture and omg...my hair stood up vertically from the wind, the rain splashed all over me, I'm soaked to the bone and now I'm in the aircon without a jacket shivering my arse off. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DRY SEASON!! >.<;; Oh yeah...about why I'm stressed...
List of things due this Friday:
- Design & Innovation Critical Reading 3
- Chemistry Practical 4 Write up
- Microbiology Practical 3 & 4 Practical Write up
- Microbiology Assignments L1 d) and e)
- Anatomy & Physiology Test 2
STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And after the Easter holidays I have 3 mid-semester exams...and about 6 billion things due....*cries*. Oh yeah...and a Progress Report and Oral for our invention in Design & Innovation which is supposed to go for 20 minutes. WAAAAAAAH! T_T
Well...I've still got just less than an hour til my next class so I'm just gonna talk to Erin, Brentley, and Jun on msn (muahaha...I have access to msn at school!).
I'm still cold and wet :(
Stress stress stress

Time finished: 4:05pm
Weather: Still bucketing 5000 tonnes of water per second with winds blowing 1000km/h XD
Mood: Stressed, cold, wet, tired, frustrated, bleargh etc etc etc.... ^^ it's all good XD

10 Tonne Brick Head

Time Started: 12:15am
Place: My room
Weather: Raining Lightly
Mood: Content

I stayed up til 5am doing my homework (weeee -.-). I finally got my Critical Reading for Design & Innovation done! I stayed up talking to Lou, Baggy, Kaoru and Erik all night. I find it funny that the gaia addict, Lou was suddenly addicted to mediwar XD. She kept on whinging how much of her money was stolen in the game. It was cute XD. Baggy and I mostly talked about our complicated love lives (except I don't really have one lol), Kaoru was...erm...eating his dinner XP and Erik well...he was just being Erik the Casanova (muahaha).
Oh right...sleep...yeah... XD Yeah. At 5am I tried to get to sleep. I did for a bit, but then I woke up early to finish off my Microbiology assignments. I finished them at 12:30pm (and I had school in half an hour...good timing eh?). I had a quick lunch, then bolted off to school.
For once we had a decent Lecture for Design & Innovation (the lectures are always dumb and irrelevant). We had this doctor who gave us an example of a bad presentation (and it was highly amusing too ^^). We got to tell him all the crap stuff he did in his presentation...that was good XD. Then we had a 10 minute break so I handed in my assignments then it was time for him to do a good presentation. Yay! It was good (not as funny though). We learnt how to do a good presentation and some random information about introduced grass in Australia that causes dangerous bush fires...
Mih...sleep deprivation is so bad. By the time I got home at around 3pm my head was a 10 tonne brick. I did some homework til 5pm then I was like "Meh!! Head...heavy! Must...rest..." so I did. ZZZZZZZZZ I slept for 2 hours!! WOOHOO! I got up and watched "20 to 1...The events that stopped the world". So many events were so sad :(. I'm surprised that the Tsunami incident only made it to number 15 though. Surprise, surprise...911 made it to number 1. After that I watched Eddie McGuire's final episode in "Who Wants To Be a Millionaire". I don't like seeing people go :(. It's just a TV show but Eddie's cool!
Bleargh...after watching TV I downloaded some songs by Trapt and Finch. I love them!! :D Yay! New rock songs added to my large music collection!
Gargh! Msn kept disconnecting me tonight >.< stupid msn!
Not really doing much now. Just talking to Lou, Jasper, Jalena, Bagwell, Erin and Jun.
I would do homework but...the stupid teachers didn't post up anything on the noticeboard about what to do, neither did they tell us when the stuff was due. So...I pretty much have no idea what to do...
Well...I like the sound of the frogs outside...croak croak croak! I haven't heard the little froggies for so long. ^.^ The little froggies are back to sing their love songs in the rain <3.
There's nothing much more to add...
Oh...wait...JUN! CHEER UP! I'M SURE TOURISM ISN'T BAD! She's a bit worried about making the wrong decision of choosing Tourism over Management and now she's kind of regretting her choice. *Sigh* choices suck. Well Jun, if you're reading this, I'm sure things will turn out fine =).
*Attackeths Jasper* WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT WEIRD ELECTRONIC HOMEWORK OR WHATEVER IT IS?! You're asking your dumb sister? *Cries* T_T I don't know anything!!!!!!!
GARGH! RIN! HOW COULD U TURN THE FROGS INTO VOICE BOXES? THAT'S SO CRUEL!
Baggy's making me hungry. He's having apples and coffee...and I want chocolate
JALENA'S THROWING NUTS AT ME! HOW RUDE!
Well...that's enough gonking at my friends now...
I guess it was a pretty relaxed day and I feel nothing but content.

Time finished: 12:54am
Weather: Light Drizzle
Mood: Content >_O

I Hate Homework!

Time started: 10:02pm
Place: My room
Weather: Stopped raining
Mood: Grumpy

I've been sitting here for hours and hours trying to get to work but I just can't. Probably because what I am trying to do now is so darn boring I just lost interest to everything. I have to read this 14 page chapter and summarise it into 300 words. 300 words is not a lot but producing 300 words that is supposed to cover a 14 page chapter is tough (and I just cannot be bothered). I miss my friends. I just wish I could be with them all the time.
I'm so moody these days I just want to avoid everyone. At least on msn I can hide under the emoticons and act happy without them realising that I'm literally screaming my head off at the inside.
At least I'm talking to Angelina now. I never get to talk to her anymore ever since she left. I miss her so much. I can say absolutely anything to her without being afraid of being judged upon. She has so much understanding towards other people. She's amazing.
Anyway...I haven't felt the best and it's driving me insane. I just want to be happy >.< instead of upsetting everyone with my stupid depression. Hui-Min you're such an attention seeker! Just shut up already!
I'll try to think of something happy...
Well, I'm currently in love with this song called "Echo" by Trapt. It's so nice :)

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste
Asking why
I'm not away with you
By my side
I'm not away with you
By my side...

This song just describes my life right now...I'm wasting time wishing to be with someone (or some people) when I'm running out of time with doing homework....

*sigh*
Life is so unfair. There's someone who loves you...yet...you can't love him back because you're too in love with someone else...
It sucks, knowing how he feels...
Everything just sucks...
Sometimes I disagree with "It's better to love than to never have loved at all" because when you don't love, sure, life is meaningless...but...there's so much pain when you love...
I don't know...love's supposed to be great...but I'm sure there are a lot of people who can relate love to pain...

Time finished: 10:30pm
Weather: Pouring down
Mood: Washed away...

Talking to Silence

Time started: 9:47pm
Place: My room
Weather: Raining
Mood: Sad

Why do I feel like people are ignoring me? *Sigh* I'm so scared of talking to people these days. I'm so scared that I would say the wrong thing and hurt them. I think I may have done that tonight. I've been doing it a lot lately. Talking always seems to get me in trouble nowadays...I don't think I should talk to people anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I don't know what things I say that make them this way...my intentions are purely genuine, well at least I try to make them genuine. I just can't do anything right. I feel like everyone's giving me the cold shoulder. I'm worried, I've never seen people so upset before, when they talk to me. What have I done wrong? I'm so sorry. Whatever I said, I just wish I knew what to take back.
I just want my life back. I just want my friends back. Everyone's so distant this year. It's like we all don't trust each other anymore. Is this what growing up is like? Drifting apart? Then I hate it. I want to go back to those days that we were carefree and compassionate towards each other. We never took each other so personally. I don't know...I just can't act normal around people anymore. It's like it's a sin...I'm just making everyone unhappy. At least I feel like I am...I just want to make things better for them. It just turns out worse.
Maybe I'll bring happiness to them if I walked out of their lives so they won't have me to worry about anymore...
It's like I've lost the love from others I cherish and it's tearing me apart on the inside, hurting me like hell.

Time finished: 9:57pm
Weather: Raining depressingly
Mood: Self loathing

Zathura/Broken Down Barina

Time started: 10:35am
Place: My room
Weather: Overcast
Mood: Content

Let's first talk about yesterday. I went to school at 11:30 and had a practical session for Anatomy & Physiology that went from 12 to 2pm. We finished half an hour though. I worked with Jade and we dissected hearts When that was done Jade gave me a lift to Casuarina where I was to meet John and his friends later on. I haven't seen John for ages!! I didn't know any of his friends but they seemed pretty cool. We walked around Casuarina aimlessly, talking about strange and wonderful things like $1 being a lot of money :/
At 5:00pm we went to the cinemas and decided on the last minute to watch "Zathura" which is like a space version of "Jumanji". Personally I didn't think it was too great but it wasn't bad either. There were some funny bits but the whole thing was kind of lame (but I suppose it was aimed more for younger kids...the script and acting was a bit dodgey). Jumanji is so much better though. Nah...the movie was pretty good (I'm indecisive, aren't I?).
After the movie it wasn't time for us to go home yet (although it was 7:00pm and we haven't been home since going to school) so we walked around some more. We went to McDonald's, John shouted me a frozen coke (how nice of him :D) and we saw this little kid stroking Ronald McDonald's arse and shoved his finger up his bottom and spun his finger round and round...John lost it completely and literally rolled on the floor laughing XD. He lost his apetite for a while =P.
When we got out of McDonald's we saw this little girl running around flashing everyone in the entire food court XD. What is the world coming to?! These kids are so hilarious and disturbed XD!
I followed John around until my mum came to Casuarina to do some night shopping. Then I said goodbye to my brother *huggles John* and tagged along with mum to do some grocery shopping until 9pm.
I got to drive home, yay ^^. We got home and we watched "Heartbreakers" on TV and it was actually pretty good. Then I stayed up til 2am doing Microbiology homework and yeah...that was my day yesterday.
It's still early in the morning here so nothing much happened...I just woke up, started my Anatomy & Physiology homework and had a video conversation with Mongo ^^. I miss Mongo. He joined the army and I haven't seen him for ages :(.
Then Mongo went out so I continued with my homework and when mum was trying to start the car to get to work...the car didn't start as I am writing this blog -.-! The car is new too! We only bought it a few months ago (it's a Holden Barina). I just called the Holden Roadside Service people and they should be here in about an hour... Well...I hope they get the car fixed...it's a good car (or so we thought it was...) and mum's getting really stressed out :S

Time finished: 11:05am
Weather: Overcast
Mood: Worried